We successfully released two ducklings K fostered for two weeks. In celebration, I pulled this post from last year to share. Living with wildlife creates opportunities for much writing fodder. This is one moment where the Divine taught me grace for myself. Enjoy
Originally posted on April 22, 2012
"Mom! The duck eggs are covered in water!
wooden brain teaser kind, in the shapes of cylinders, pyramids and barrels. About a year and a half ago, a series of personal earthquakes knocked the shelf off. In trying to find equilibrium with these unresolved things, I spend the time in mental gymnastics.
Often the advice is: toss the puzzle. Let it go. Stop looking for the solution.
That I have. I solve the puzzle and put it away. Weeks, months, or years later it falls into my mental hands and I am at it again. I would like to just dump it and move on. Yet it sticks, like book pages to my sap covered fingers.
Those who know me well understand that letting go is a process and have patience with me. Lately they have given me great perspective:
I am not like others, who can just dump a whole problem. I excise it piece by piece, logically and scientifically. I am letting it go; slowly. Patience and acceptance of this method must be remembered.
My Loving Creator is in the midst. When a thought or memory regurgitates, the immediate thought is to talk to a friend or make an appointment for therapy. The message I missed was this: the Spirit is ever present and in that moment wants to meet me for healing. My responsibility is to stop and discuss it, then meditate on the answer allowing the loving touch.
I am not that different from the duck. Duck experienced indescribable danger to what she treasured most. She could not solve the problem so help was cried for. I could not pick the boat up and dump the water out. It was too big and the eggs would have been tossed. The only way to answer was with a cup, a turkey baster and a towel. As I drained the water, one section at a time Duck waited. When I was finished she received the answer she needed. In trusting the Spirit to counsel me through these puzzles, I too will find my answers one piece at a time.