Beccalynn married a Counting Mutant. Together they created a Renaissance family. Wild Oat found them in his 20s and now is married with three kids. Ase and Zany, former dancers who now bravely face life as emerging adults. Girly dances, collects dead things and faces her teen years with superpower logic. Creatively they navigate life through Jesus’ gift, asking uncomfortable questions to discover the deep love that awaits us all.
Thoughts never stop percolating in my consciousness.
The other day and I stumbled over this
verse, “And you, who once were alienated and enemies in your mind by wicked works, yet now He has reconciled..." Colossians 1:21
Thought tires squealed; the Enemy within MY
mind? I always heard God was my enemy because of sin. He cast
humanity out of the garden over a piece of fruit! I began to dig and
to my surprise I found this cause and effect verse:
”But they rebelled and grieved His Holy Spirit; So He turned
Himself against them as an enemy, And He fought against them." Isaiah
Considering my own relationships where a misunderstanding
occurred, often the offended will treat me as an enemy. Anger sparks gossip.
Words cut and damage other friendships around me like ripples in water. My
response is to protect myself by stepping away. Not participating in a battle I
cannot win. I cannot change the mind of the offended, so I leave them with
their beliefs of me.
I considered the origin of this “God’s enemy” perception.
"And the Lord God commanded the man, saying, "Of
every tree of the garden you may freely eat; but of the Tree of the Knowledge
of Good and Evil you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat of it you shall
surely die." Genesis 2:16-17:
This thought occurred: what if it wasn't the tree?
What if it was the choice?
When it mattered, would they turn to God for their knowledge
of what was good and evil?
We know the answer from Genesis 3:4-6; the Serpent hinted
that God was lying to them. Adam and Eve decided to rely on themselves instead
of the one who made them. An enemy keeps secrets in order to imprison the weak.
Maybe they weren't free. Possibly Eden
was an elaborate prison. Adam and Eve needed to act and think for themselves.
This was the choice they faced. The result, instead of
trusting the one whom they walked in the cool of the garden with regularly and
knew intimately; they chose the Tree. This tree became the source of Knowledge
of Good and Evil, instead of the One who created it.
This perception severed them from the life giving
Creator. The struggle of humanity began in that moment with a perception:
God had to keep His promise of Free Will. God cannot lie.
God cannot cause evil. From that point on humanity seeks themselves for their
own Knowledge of Good and Evil instead of God. We stumble around in blind
innocence, trying to make sense of it all. Doing what is right in our own
Therefore, he had to provide a way to restore the
relationship. Jesus was that way. He brings us back to the garden in John 15:5,
"I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him,
bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing."
Jesus creates a path for us to walk in the cool of the
garden with, "If you had known Me, you would have known My Father also;
and from now on you know Him and have seen Him" John 14:7.
We meditate on the horror of Jesus, praying in a garden. He
was an innocent man, arrested, falsely accused then crucified as an enemy of Rome and the Jews.
What if Jesus was portraying what Adam and Eve did in the
They acted as if God was their enemy. In their
understanding, he was hiding information from them. Maybe they needed to
protect themselves, so they acted. The result was separation. That led to
death of the relationship. This death was then laid upon Jesus.
I stumbled upon a conclusion: through Jesus, I have the
ability to seek God's knowledge of good and evil instead of my own knowledge.
Which brings me back to the original question:
How have I made God an enemy in my mind?
Every time I blame Him for something that goes wrong or react
to a situation instead of stopping to seek wisdom. Whenever I complain or
tear myself apart over a mistake. God is not out to make my life miserable
with unrealistic demands. Divine Love has not set me up to fail. It has
set me free to make a choice. I need to set aside my inaccurate perception and
believe in His intrinsic goodness. To ask for his direction, for his
vantage point is clearer than mine. I can trust Him.