When
I started high school, something changed within me. I so subtle it couldn’t be
defined, but at the core was a fierceness. My Parents announced they needed a
trip away. I asked if we could stay home. They hesitated and that subtle
fierceness grew. I was babysitting the
sisters on a regular basis. I knew how to cook, clean and keep a schedule.
Dad’s brother, Uncle2 and Aunt2 lived five minutes away. If something happened,
they were only a phone call away.
I
was 14.
I
considered myself responsible.
And
it whispered to me, “Keep Sisters away from them.”
It
bothered me that the voice made no sense. Grandparents, Aunt and Uncle were
kind. They loved us…But… I lobbied that logic with my feelings.
Feelings
said we weren’t safe. Feelings said to protect Sisters.
Feelings
won and never again did we spend a weekend with Them.
Then
my Senior year.
A
string of suicides.
An extra credit paper for Sociology opened a rabbit hole that rivaled Pandora’s
Box.
The
flood of memories explained why I became so fiercely protective of Sisters.
Uncle had been a little too friendly. Compelled to do the “right thing,” I sat
my Parents down and told them what I remembered. It was 1986 and Incest was the
hot topic. Parents sat Sisters down and asked them the questions.
I
had failed.
Uncle
acquainted himself with two Sisters, the Third and youngest of us was
unscathed. Dad approached Uncle2 and informed him of what was going on. Uncle2
already knew about it. Their family dealt with it years before.
Dad
and Mom were left with a decision. Cousins and I sat down to discuss what the
options were. We voted to report it and let the law take its’ course. Dad made
the arrangements. We all made our reports to the Sheriff.
Then
Dad had to sit down with Grandma Edna and explain what was going on. Why our
family along with Uncle and Aunt2’s family would not be attending Holiday
gatherings.
Grandma
Edna didn’t take it well.
Her
system of things was violated. This was her family and she needed them around
her. Stuff like this happened all the time. She explained to Dad that growing
up Uncle Blah and Uncle Pfft did such and such to girl cousins. It was just
what our family did. What’s the big deal?
She
then said to my Dad, “Well… why can’t you guys just get over it so we can get
together as a family. I was raped at 14 and I got over it.”
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